I Am Me. . . Not The Girl With Diabetes

Hello cupcakes! How are you all?

We have many reasons to celebrate today! The sun is out, the sky is clear, and we're alive. Yep. We are alive.

Those of you who don't me personally don't know this, but I have Type 1 Diabetes. I have had it for 12 and a half years now and, I'm not going to lie, at times it has wrecked my life. But I now have an Insulin Pump called Patrick. I decided that since the pump would be my life partner for the rest of my life, he needed a name. So I graced him with the name 'Patrick', kind of named after Patrick Star from SpongeBob. But I call him Patrizio when I'm feeling posh and/or Italian. He's been amazing in keeping my blood sugars under control. And to be honest, it beats injecting 4-8 times a day! No more bruises!

Just so you know, Type 1 Diabetes is completely different to Type 2. Whereas Type 2 is diet and obesity related, Type 1 is not. It is to do with a virus and genetics. There's nothing you can do to prevent it or cure it. Anyway, I've had Patrick for 18 months now and things were going perfectly. Then I had a bad blip, and now things are back to normal again and seem to be going smoothly.

However, I received some pretty startling news last Thursday when I went to see my Diabetes Consultant. My kidneys are leaking. So I seem to have the onset of Diabetic Nephropathy (or Kidney Disease). I won't know for sure how far along I am until my test results come back. However, this pretty much made my world come crashing down for a few days. Wow, how deep does that sound?! But it's how I felt, truth be told.

So I wallowed in the fact that 'leaky kidneys' was yet another thing to add to the list of things wrong with me. I felt sorry for myself and cried lots. And I was such a miserable person, which is very unlike me. But then realisation struck. . .

I am alive. I have access to medical care that isn't available to many people in other countries. I have a good, supportive family and amazing friends. My heart is still beating. What I have isn't terminal. I don't have Cancer. I don't have anything even close to that! I'm young. And I'm going to fight this 'til the end.

Don't get me wrong, I needed to wallow in my issues for a while. I needed to be treated delicately and I needed to feel sorry for myself for a few days. But that's it. That's all I really needed to do to snap back out of it. Us humans, we moan about so much. We worry about things that aren't even worth worrying about. We think our problems are the worst in the world. How wrong we are though.

There is always, always, someone going through so much worse than we are. I don't find that thought comforting at all. But it makes me look at my own issues in a different light and it helps me to put my own issues into perspective.

So even though I thought I was getting better but I'm evidently not, I'm not going to let this affect me too much. I mean, I'm going to try and live a healthier lifestyle which is beneficial regardless. But I'm not going to let this mess with my head too much. Whatever happens, happens. As long as I am surrounded by the people I love and cherish and am made to laugh more than I could possibly handle, well, I'll be happy =)

This brings me to the reason behind the title for this post. I want all my friends to know who I am. I want to be known for my personality: my weirdness, craziness, utter hilariousness ;) and just the girl who gets so excited over stupid things (sometimes I don't even know why I'm excited. Think of the whole "I'm so excited! Are you excited? Because I'm soooooo excited but I don't know why!" scenario). And the girl who talks so much that she actually gets out of breath. I kid you not. It's happened on numerous occasions. Especially when it comes to meeting people I don't know. I have two extremes; either I go mute or I talk wayyyy too much.

But anyway, I digress again. So I want to be known for all that. I don't want to be known as the girl with diabetes, bad health, ketones(!), kidney issues, and the like. Because that's not me. Its just stuff that's been pinned on me involuntarily.

So there. I feel better now I've got that off my chest. It's amazing how much writing can help clear your head.

Anyway, I hope you've kind of enjoyed this post. I apologise profusely for the intense 'emo' undertones. But yeah, have a good day people! Hope you're enjoying the sun as much as I am!!

Keep smiling folks!

Ditzy xXx

Friends, Firings, Fabulous Finds and Fantastic Matches

Hello guys! Hope you're all good!

So this past week has been mad! But in a good way. I was able to catch up with lots of friends who I hadn't seen in quite some time which was brilliant. Totes emotes that the weekend is over though, because I miss them all already! You all know who you are, my beautiful cupcakes! So the weekend was full of love, laughs, learning, and just pure amazing-ness!

Slightly sad news. . . Myles Mordaunt was fired from The Apprentice last week *sob sob*. Yes, the eye candy that was the Silver Surfer himself was let go from the show after, quite frankly, a shocking performance as Project Manager. I'm not normally so harsh. But it was actually really unnerving to see such a calm and collected man so. . . uncalm and uncollected. Also, I'm well aware that 'uncalm' isn't a word, but let's just ignore the angry red lines underneath it and stick with it.

But ever the gentleman, Myles held his own through the rollicking in the boardroom and accepted full responsibility. Also, when being interviewed on 'You're Fired', he didn't have a bad word to say about anyone. . . *sigh*. . . SUCH a gentleman =') But I do wish him all the very best in the future. He seems to be the perfect businessman but in his own area of expertise. So all the best! (Though I know Myles doesn't need my best wishes. He has his own website! Yes, when I say accomplished, I mean accomplished!)

http://mylesmordaunt.com/about  << See!!!

My latest Fabulous Finds include Gabrielle Aplin, who I love at the moment! I'm hoping to go and see her live soon! I actually have her album 'English Rain' playing in the background. It's so beautiful. Seriously. Really, really soothing. My fave song is Home, without a doubt. It's just perfect. The vocals, the lyrics, the tone. I love everything about it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mVbdjec0pA

Also, does anyone remember an old Garage tune called Sweet Like Chocolate by Shanks & Bigfoot (and vocals by Sharon Woolf, NOT Kylie Minogue, as someone once thought. . . If you're reading this, you know who you are =P).

Well, I found a revamp of the song by MNEK, an up and coming singer who is uh-mazing! Seriously check him out if you haven't heard him before, but I'm sure you probably have heard some of his stuff. He collaborated with the likes of Rudimental and Disclosure (both of whom I love!!!!!). But seriously, if you remember the song, check this out. He hasn't spoiled it or taken anything away. He's incorporated it into his own thing and I love love love it!!! Oh and it's called Sweet Fantasy =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lswVZ9XOm58

And here is the original track by Shanks & Bigfoot. . .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DHFFol-8REI

It's funny, that was the first ever single I bought as a kid. I listened to it all the time and even made up a dance routine to it haha. It's so good to hear it back again! Aww sweet memories! Even though stuff was messed up, I was completely unaware of the extent of it all. And that ignorance was indeed bliss.

So those have been my Fab Finds of the week.

Last but definitely not least is WIMBLEDON!!!! Have you guys been into it at all? I have. Massively. And I'd like to congratulate the amazing Andy Murray for winning the Men's Finals vs. Novak Djokovic. The first Brit to win Wimbledon in 77 years!!! What an amazing victory!

Kudos to Djokovic though. He fought hard 'til the end and made Andy work hard for the win! It was an uphill battle but our Andy did it. Well done!!!!

Oh and one last thing. A quick thank you to Sam Fender because he read my blog (I posted the link to it on his Facebook and he commented on it!). It means so much to me to have people read this or just have a gander. And he also interacts with his fans, which is so different from many other people rising to fame. So thanks Sam! =D

Ok cupcakes! I hope you've enjoyed reading this! Have a fabulous day in this fabulous weather! Let's hope the sun is here to stay for a while. And in the words of Labrinth. . .

"Let the sun shine, let the sun shine, baby, let it all go, just let it all go"

Yep. No matter what your age, gender, ethnicity, status, or disposition, stay young at heart, happy, and carefree. Let the sun shine, let it all go, and enjoy life!

Ditzy xXx

I'd Have a Google

Hello readers! I hope you're all good because I feel fab!

A bit of a weird title to this post, but you should be used to that by now. The inspiration to this post comes from none other than Samuel L Jackson. Yep. Shaft himself. Let me explain. . .

I was watching Samuel L Jackson being interviewed the other day on TV, along with the drop-dead-gorgeous, epitome of perfection that is Sandra Bullock (my brother would completely agree with this fact. . . Hi Shezzy!).

So anyway, they were talking about stars Google-ing themselves. And Mr Jackson outright admitted that he does Google himself. On numerous occasions. He was saying that whenever he has a film coming out, he will Google the reviews and get into chat room forums to debate with reviewers. Then they eventually realise, "Oh my word. It's SLJ!!! "

So this made me wonder if I would Google myself if I were ever famous. Fame is not an ambition of mine, but it's fun to think about. So many celebs say that they don't do it. And I'm sure many don't make a habit of it. But come on, if you were famous and everyone knew your name, surely you would have popped your name into Google at least once! Out of curiosity?

Heck, I'd Google my name all the time! In fact, I'd do it so many times that I'd probably make my name a trending topic on the 'net. I mean, no one would know it was just me Google-ing myself right? =P

Does that sound conceited? Meh, maybe it does. . . But we'll stick with it.

So, just a random thought really. Hope you're all having lovely days and that you have some sunshine where you are. If you do, please send some over to me!!! We need summer back!

Keep Smiling Folks!

Ditzy xXx